Everything Will Be Fine

It's really hard.

Sometimes I can't help it, I allow my mind to wander and there you show up, like an apparition.

I've been better, distracted with school and this whole new experience and that's when I'm okay.

But sometimes, just sometimes it creeps up behind me, like the way a leopard stalks it's prey, waiting to strike me when I'm at my weakest and most vulnerable.

I still feel the pang of something that's missing. An empty box, with a familiar lingering scent.

Every little detail replays. Different moments, a touch, a look, a smile, words, freshly imprinted.

I know these thoughts should be forbidden and yet here I am, helplessly caught up in a moment of guilty pleasure, sinking, indulging in these perilous thoughts. I hate those days.

A song. A simple song I hear, and my insides begin to cringe, my wavering heart shrinks and aches, because this simple song, reminds me of you.

But you are candy-covered poison.

So, it is better this way. We go our separate paths. No contact whatsoever.

Now, we can't pretend nothing happened between us either, that would be ridiculous and impossible.

Just breathe deeply, accept it and move on.

And as much as I miss you and as much as it still hurts, I know in my heart I made the best decision to let you go...for good.

Because in the end, we would have both ended up broken. Shattered glass.

I know I'll be okay. Just give me a little time.

And everything will be fine.

I'm not a huge fan of MIKA but I find the songs from his new album to be quite awesome, this one in particular.