I Don't Belong Here

<<<(I soo belong here)

Wow! So you could say it's been a while since I've updated this blog, geez it has to be a crime! I apologize although I'm not sure exactly to whom I'm apologizing to lol.
Ok to get on with my blog...
Have you ever felt like you were somewhere familiar and yet you still felt like you didn't belong there? Kinda like a bird in a cage, and although the bird has become accustomed to being confined in its 'home', it doesn't quite belong there. Yet if the cage door were to swing open one day, it would still refuse to leave its home because that's all it's ever known its whole life and it's scared, fearful of what's out there in the real world, afraid of the unknown. So it turns down its opportunity at freedom. Well that's kinda what I feel. I love my city, but I've become so bored of it! I want to see the world, see what's out there beyond my reach. That's why I say I feel like I don't belong here. Change, newness, it can be a scary thing. But I desire it, crave it despite my fears, despite my love affair with comfort and familiarity, I feel something in the depths of my soul and excuse my cheesy cliché lines but I actually feel a burning desire run through my veins to leave this city and venture out into newer and better unknowns. I need a refresher. The only thing is that I don't know if that's what God wants me to do, if it's His plan. Is it selfish of me? I don't know if I really should, or whether it's the right time. And on top of that I've had a million other thoughts and worries run through my head.
Do I worry too much? Lack faith? Maybe I really am the only one that's stopping myself.