What are you doing to me? Tell me what exactly is it that you want? Don't you realize how much this hurts? You suck me in then you push me out, you tell me one thing, then tell me the contrary. I feel like a ragdoll just being played around with. Precisely what you're doing, playing and screwing with my feelings. I just can't take this emotional rollercoaster. You're a jerk. You're sweet.You don't want me. You want me. It drives me crazy! So why can't I just let you go, why do you make this so difficult? I'm weak and I don't want to be. This is so bad.. this.. me desiring you despite me knowing that you're bad news. Just an unhealthy, endless cycle. How can I handle someone who is emotionally and psychologically unstable? I wish you would stop having such a negative outlook on life, but who am I to say that, I haven't been through all the crap you've been through. Okay so you may have your issues, but you're not the only one! Frig! I can't get you out of my head. Am I suppose to continue putting up with your stubborness, stupidity, cruelty and constant apologies? Your bittersweet nature that doesn't cease to allure me?
You know what's fascinating? How certain songs you listen to seem to hit you the hardest when you are in a present situation in which the lyrics seem to be so much more relevant because you can earnestly relate. It seemed like every song I listened to was speaking directly of you. Of us.
The song hot n cold by Katy Perry totally expresses what I'm feeling at this very moment. Honestly, I don't know what to do with you.
-- Signed,
Hopelessly in love
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