C'est La Vie

So, I'm off to Québec City in like 2 days. I'm gonna be in a French-speaking city, 10 hours away by car from my hometown, on my own (well technically I'm staying with family friends but you know what I mean) and it's only now starting to register. Hmm. The reason I'm going... to brush up on my extremely (emphasis on the extremely) poor french. I'll be studying at Laval University, apparently it's quite a popular school. My feelings at the moment are a mix of excitement and anxiousness with a smidge of fear which makes sense considering it'll be my first time experiencing this kind of independence. To be honest, it's kind of another reason why I made my decision to go, as much as I love my mommy and will really miss her (I'll admit-- guilty of being a mama's girl), I need to do this for my own good. I've lived at home my whole life, I need to get out there and see the world from a different perspective. It'll be an adventure! And hopefully a beneficial one lol. This is one bird about to leave the mama nest.
Random fun facts:

• The word Québec means 'Where the river narrows'.
•  Québec contains more than 3% of the world’s fresh water reserves.

 
With that I leave you with an amazing song from one of my all-time favourite bands...

Some Kind of Magic

I'll let the lyrics of the following song speak for me..

I Caught Myself lyrics by Paramore 

Down to you
You're pushing and pulling me down to
But I don't know what I
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you

You're pushing and pulling me down too
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

You got it, you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you

You're pushing and pulling me down too
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
But I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you
I never know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no, I should have never thought

Dear X,

 What are you doing to me? Tell me what exactly is it that you want? Don't you realize how much this hurts? You suck me in then you push me out, you tell me one thing, then tell me the contrary. I feel like a ragdoll just being played around with. Precisely what you're doing, playing and screwing with my feelings. I just can't take this emotional rollercoaster. You're a jerk. You're sweet.You don't want me. You want me. It drives me crazy! So why can't I just let you go, why do you make this so difficult? I'm weak and I don't want to be. This is so bad.. this.. me desiring you despite me knowing that you're bad news. Just an unhealthy, endless cycle. How can I handle someone who is emotionally and psychologically unstable? I wish you would stop having such a negative outlook on life, but who am I to say that, I haven't been through all the crap you've been through. Okay so you may have your issues, but you're not the only one! Frig! I can't get you out of my head. Am I suppose to continue putting up with your stubborness, stupidity, cruelty and constant apologies? Your bittersweet nature that doesn't cease to allure me?
You know what's fascinating? How certain songs you listen to seem to hit you the hardest when you are in a present situation in which the lyrics seem to be so much more relevant because you can earnestly relate. It seemed like every song I listened to was speaking directly of you. Of us.
The song hot n cold by Katy Perry totally expresses what I'm feeling at this very moment. Honestly, I don't know what to do with you.

-- Signed,
Hopelessly in love

Party Timeee!!

Haha, 80s music rocks my socks.
 
Can I just for a moment foolishly revel and express my happiness and relief to be finally done with school?! GHAAAAHHJGKJFKFDSLHOI!!! 
ok, I'm done expressing my joy. Although I'm still in zombie mode from pulling two almost all-nighters (not in a row but still in a week). Omg, last week was a killer week, 4 papers due and 1 artist statement, no mercy. No mercy. I had my last crit (final) today and am now completely done. Oh how I was looking forward to this day, but I don't know, for some reason apart from being glad, I feel kind of weird, like, it still hasn't clicked in yet that this school term is over. That and perhaps it's the lack of sleep. 
So now that I have more time on my hands you can expect more blog posts =D
Ok, that's all I have to say for now, and for all those of you who are still in deep seas of exams and finals, good luck! A celebration awaits you! Cheers.